Its been a crazy last 2 weeks. It started with not feeling well. It was a bad PMS time. I usually have at least one bad PMS symptom every month, but this month I had them all at once. Headaches, bloating extrodinaire, crampy, achy, and wow the bitchiness. Now top that all with a good ol' bout of depression. I struggle a bit with depression. It runs in the family on my mothers side. My maternal grandmother had it bad.
I don't have problems anything like dooce did, and I have had an excellent doctor right from the start. I take a small dose of med's and it is controlled very well. January and February are always a little tough though. Now just top it off with a good pile of hormones and KAZAM!
Knowing what's going on kept the bitch somewhat confined though, that and it's hard to be a real bitch when your emotions are also struggling with the dumps.
Now in the middle of all this throw in my family. I am not going to get into it much as I love them and they are all very important and good to me. I could not do with out them in my life. BUT, it gets to be a bit much for me to handle. One of my sisters has decided to move away, and I mean away, she is taking her family two provinces over. This is not a small decision for her and her family. I admire her guts. Things are not working for them here and they have decided a fresh start is what they need. I want to support them in this decision. You can imagine the guts it takes. I am also excited for them. Change is as good as a rest.
Being such a big thing, it immediately causes a round of endless phone calls and coffee type conversations within "the sisters" and "mom" of why are they doing this and is it a good thing for them. THIS MUST BE ANALYZED TO DEATH and Monarch must be consulted over and over again. I am not allowed to just give my opinion and leave it at that. Lord knows I try.
NOTE: To my mom and any sisters reading this. These are my feelings this week of this situation and how it affects ME. It is not a reflection on you or who you are. You are all awesome, intelligent, caring and very good people that I am proud of being associated with.
Now, in the middle of all this my period starts. YAY!, now my body will settle and my mind can follow. NOPE! It is the annual purge of my innards period. Yesterday I swear I had 6 puppies in 3 hours. I clot, BIG. It used to be like this every month and I was always anemic, but 4 years ago I had a endometrial ablation and things were much better. But it is slowing getting back to the ways things were and every now and then I get one again.
This completely drains me. I am sitting here almost done the purge and looking forward to the next two weeks. They better make up for the last two weeks.
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I was pretty shocked to hear that T wants to move to Manitoba, I don't mean this in any negative context whatsoever but she seemed like the one I would least expect to move. I'm happy for her that she's setting out on an adventure and opening herself to new learning experiences though I'm sad that she won't be around at the family shindigs and we won't get to see L and D grow up as closely as we might (and you would way more than I would so I'm sure you feel that way more than I do). I can understand Mom's concern, too. One of her brood is taking off and it's the one who I think was always the most independent and therefore less communicative. Sure B moves all the time but he's really good at keeping in touch and besides we all need a break from his geekyness once in a while... I'm totally kidding. I don't know what I'd do without my über geek to rely on. Um. What was my point. I'm not sure I had one. Maybe mom (and all of us, really) were tickled to, for once, have the whole clan in reasonable travelling distance (me being the least reasonable) and getting into the comfort of frequent interaction. Having that torn apart must be hard for mom. From what I can see, T and mom were getting along better than they ever have and spending a lot of good time together. It must be awful to feel that tie pulled apart just as it was getting tight.
yup
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