I went to my first ever spin class this evening and what a blast. It so reminded me of being on my bike on the trails in the summer. It was hard, I will pay for it tomorrow and my ass has been rubbed raw from the seat but I will do it again and again for sure. It was so much better than the treadmill.
I loved it!
Monday, February 28, 2005
Sunday, February 27, 2005
Theory
I have a theory. Every weblog I have been reading and people I been talking too, all seem to feel out of sorts this past month or two, myself included. Not like anything is wrong, just like something is off, or out of kilter, out of alignment.
I am blaming the earthquake that caused the tsunami.
It shook the world. The whole world. Not just the emotional side of the devastation left in the wake of the tsunami, which shakes up the world enough by itself, but the earthquake itself. It was a huge one. It sent the earth into, albeit very minute but still, a faster spin. This affects everything. Our bodies must adjust. Our bodies innately know something is different. Our emotional selves are trying to deal with the tragedy. This combined with January and February blues, has thrown a lot of people off themselves. We are in a time of readjustment. It will take time to settle.
I am starting to feel a little more settled myself. March seems very promising.
I am blaming the earthquake that caused the tsunami.
It shook the world. The whole world. Not just the emotional side of the devastation left in the wake of the tsunami, which shakes up the world enough by itself, but the earthquake itself. It was a huge one. It sent the earth into, albeit very minute but still, a faster spin. This affects everything. Our bodies must adjust. Our bodies innately know something is different. Our emotional selves are trying to deal with the tragedy. This combined with January and February blues, has thrown a lot of people off themselves. We are in a time of readjustment. It will take time to settle.
I am starting to feel a little more settled myself. March seems very promising.
Monday, February 21, 2005
Long weekend
My long weekend has come to a close. With the holiday Monday and both Dean starting his four days off on Friday and Kaitlin home from school too, I took a half day off from work Friday afternoon and have spent the weekend hanging out with them. It has been great.
Friday afternoon, Dean and I looked at some more flooring and did some grocery shopping. We have decided on laminate for the front room. I pulled up all the carpet late last summer hoping the plywood sub floor would give us the little extra boost to go ahead and get it, but alas, here we are with still the sub floor for the first room anyone sees when they walk in the door. Last week we ordered a leather sofa, love seat and chair of the colour and style we have been eyeing for years. Now we HAVE to get the floor in. We picked the floor we want and it should be purchased and installed VERY soon.
Friday evening Dean went to play hockey, and Kaitlin had a friend sleep over and I got to watch two episodes back to back of What not to Wear. Saturday morning I went to the gym, Kaitlin and her friend went snowboarding. I spent a lovely afternoon puttering around and cleaning the house with Dean. We then had Brian, Kelly and their girls over for a hotdog and smokie BBQ and I drank a bottle of wine all to myself (no one else wanted any, they were all drinking beer) while we watched a movie and broke in our new 52" TV that we picked up with the front room set.
Sunday was sleep-in day. A relaxing coffee and brunch then I started the laundry. We watched a couple more movies and Cindy & Willy dropped by with a bottle of wine. I kept it to one glass this time.
Today, more sleep-in, more laundry, an girls afternoon checking out the local dollar store and other such establishments and a nice supper and another movie. I didn't make it back to the gym tonite like I hoped, but Dean and I went for a 40 minute walk and I did 30 minutes of stretches and some various sorts of abdominal crunch type things. I am really looking forward to starting the pilates thing. I am hoping the yoga part of pilates will help me with my emotional and hormonal issues. I wish we had some real yoga here.
All in all a great long relaxing weekend. I'm not even dreading the infamous double Monday that we always have on the first day back from a long weekend.
Friday afternoon, Dean and I looked at some more flooring and did some grocery shopping. We have decided on laminate for the front room. I pulled up all the carpet late last summer hoping the plywood sub floor would give us the little extra boost to go ahead and get it, but alas, here we are with still the sub floor for the first room anyone sees when they walk in the door. Last week we ordered a leather sofa, love seat and chair of the colour and style we have been eyeing for years. Now we HAVE to get the floor in. We picked the floor we want and it should be purchased and installed VERY soon.
Friday evening Dean went to play hockey, and Kaitlin had a friend sleep over and I got to watch two episodes back to back of What not to Wear. Saturday morning I went to the gym, Kaitlin and her friend went snowboarding. I spent a lovely afternoon puttering around and cleaning the house with Dean. We then had Brian, Kelly and their girls over for a hotdog and smokie BBQ and I drank a bottle of wine all to myself (no one else wanted any, they were all drinking beer) while we watched a movie and broke in our new 52" TV that we picked up with the front room set.
Sunday was sleep-in day. A relaxing coffee and brunch then I started the laundry. We watched a couple more movies and Cindy & Willy dropped by with a bottle of wine. I kept it to one glass this time.
Today, more sleep-in, more laundry, an girls afternoon checking out the local dollar store and other such establishments and a nice supper and another movie. I didn't make it back to the gym tonite like I hoped, but Dean and I went for a 40 minute walk and I did 30 minutes of stretches and some various sorts of abdominal crunch type things. I am really looking forward to starting the pilates thing. I am hoping the yoga part of pilates will help me with my emotional and hormonal issues. I wish we had some real yoga here.
All in all a great long relaxing weekend. I'm not even dreading the infamous double Monday that we always have on the first day back from a long weekend.
Hope again
I am starting to feel like there is hope again. The days have been sunnier. My home has been quieter, and spring can't be too far away. I CAN do this.
I went back to the gym Saturday morning and I am going again tonite. I enrolled myself in an introduction to Stott pilates beginners session for this coming Saturday morning at the gym. I purchased two Stott DVDs just after Christmas and this session should get me the basic fundamentals to get my Pilates ball rolling.
Stephanie will be home for 4 days this coming weekend. She always cheers me up. And Tassie goes in to get her teeth cleaned next week too. As she is 14 yrs old, being put under anesthesia is a risk for her but her teeth and gums are so bad, we have decided that the risk is worth it. Her quality of life is weighing in higher than the risk. Her breath is so bad that no one wants to snuggle with her and that is NOT good. She is such a loving sweetie and derserves lots and lots of loving.
I went back to the gym Saturday morning and I am going again tonite. I enrolled myself in an introduction to Stott pilates beginners session for this coming Saturday morning at the gym. I purchased two Stott DVDs just after Christmas and this session should get me the basic fundamentals to get my Pilates ball rolling.
Stephanie will be home for 4 days this coming weekend. She always cheers me up. And Tassie goes in to get her teeth cleaned next week too. As she is 14 yrs old, being put under anesthesia is a risk for her but her teeth and gums are so bad, we have decided that the risk is worth it. Her quality of life is weighing in higher than the risk. Her breath is so bad that no one wants to snuggle with her and that is NOT good. She is such a loving sweetie and derserves lots and lots of loving.
Wednesday, February 16, 2005
Saturday, February 12, 2005
Where should I start?
Its been a crazy last 2 weeks. It started with not feeling well. It was a bad PMS time. I usually have at least one bad PMS symptom every month, but this month I had them all at once. Headaches, bloating extrodinaire, crampy, achy, and wow the bitchiness. Now top that all with a good ol' bout of depression. I struggle a bit with depression. It runs in the family on my mothers side. My maternal grandmother had it bad.
I don't have problems anything like dooce did, and I have had an excellent doctor right from the start. I take a small dose of med's and it is controlled very well. January and February are always a little tough though. Now just top it off with a good pile of hormones and KAZAM!
Knowing what's going on kept the bitch somewhat confined though, that and it's hard to be a real bitch when your emotions are also struggling with the dumps.
Now in the middle of all this throw in my family. I am not going to get into it much as I love them and they are all very important and good to me. I could not do with out them in my life. BUT, it gets to be a bit much for me to handle. One of my sisters has decided to move away, and I mean away, she is taking her family two provinces over. This is not a small decision for her and her family. I admire her guts. Things are not working for them here and they have decided a fresh start is what they need. I want to support them in this decision. You can imagine the guts it takes. I am also excited for them. Change is as good as a rest.
Being such a big thing, it immediately causes a round of endless phone calls and coffee type conversations within "the sisters" and "mom" of why are they doing this and is it a good thing for them. THIS MUST BE ANALYZED TO DEATH and Monarch must be consulted over and over again. I am not allowed to just give my opinion and leave it at that. Lord knows I try.
NOTE: To my mom and any sisters reading this. These are my feelings this week of this situation and how it affects ME. It is not a reflection on you or who you are. You are all awesome, intelligent, caring and very good people that I am proud of being associated with.
Now, in the middle of all this my period starts. YAY!, now my body will settle and my mind can follow. NOPE! It is the annual purge of my innards period. Yesterday I swear I had 6 puppies in 3 hours. I clot, BIG. It used to be like this every month and I was always anemic, but 4 years ago I had a endometrial ablation and things were much better. But it is slowing getting back to the ways things were and every now and then I get one again.
This completely drains me. I am sitting here almost done the purge and looking forward to the next two weeks. They better make up for the last two weeks.
I don't have problems anything like dooce did, and I have had an excellent doctor right from the start. I take a small dose of med's and it is controlled very well. January and February are always a little tough though. Now just top it off with a good pile of hormones and KAZAM!
Knowing what's going on kept the bitch somewhat confined though, that and it's hard to be a real bitch when your emotions are also struggling with the dumps.
Now in the middle of all this throw in my family. I am not going to get into it much as I love them and they are all very important and good to me. I could not do with out them in my life. BUT, it gets to be a bit much for me to handle. One of my sisters has decided to move away, and I mean away, she is taking her family two provinces over. This is not a small decision for her and her family. I admire her guts. Things are not working for them here and they have decided a fresh start is what they need. I want to support them in this decision. You can imagine the guts it takes. I am also excited for them. Change is as good as a rest.
Being such a big thing, it immediately causes a round of endless phone calls and coffee type conversations within "the sisters" and "mom" of why are they doing this and is it a good thing for them. THIS MUST BE ANALYZED TO DEATH and Monarch must be consulted over and over again. I am not allowed to just give my opinion and leave it at that. Lord knows I try.
NOTE: To my mom and any sisters reading this. These are my feelings this week of this situation and how it affects ME. It is not a reflection on you or who you are. You are all awesome, intelligent, caring and very good people that I am proud of being associated with.
Now, in the middle of all this my period starts. YAY!, now my body will settle and my mind can follow. NOPE! It is the annual purge of my innards period. Yesterday I swear I had 6 puppies in 3 hours. I clot, BIG. It used to be like this every month and I was always anemic, but 4 years ago I had a endometrial ablation and things were much better. But it is slowing getting back to the ways things were and every now and then I get one again.
This completely drains me. I am sitting here almost done the purge and looking forward to the next two weeks. They better make up for the last two weeks.
Thursday, February 10, 2005
Hey
I finally have some things to blog about, but The Apprentice is starting and you are just gonna have to wait until tomorrow now.
Monday, February 07, 2005
Friday, February 04, 2005
Reflections
Its been a tough week. Not a bad week, just a tough week. I am tired. I want to get away from all the demands of my life. Not forever, I really do enjoy my life. Just a break. A chance to truly relax. I would like to know what it is like not to have knots in my back and shoulders. A chance to look around me and enjoy whats there instead of trying to avoid anything that looks like it might like to involve me.
I feel like I am always running behind, always trying to catch up, always not quite where I am supposed to be. I always say I know where I have to be next, but I have no idea where I just came from. I would like the time to reflect on what just happened, where I just was, what I saw, said, or did. I would like to be able to look at the ripples of my life. It might just give me a sense of what my life means.
Blah, blah, blah, this is not where I wanted to go with this post. I sound like a whining complaining mid life crisis middle age women.
But, isn't that what I am right now? Is this reflection on myself not what comes next for me? I expect the next few years may be a little tough on me, but that can only make me stronger. And what's wrong with a little, or even a lot, of reflection on yourself every now and then. A season of winter and then spring in your life.
I think I will spend some time this weekend reading the new Lois Hole spring gardening magazine I just purchased.
I feel like I am always running behind, always trying to catch up, always not quite where I am supposed to be. I always say I know where I have to be next, but I have no idea where I just came from. I would like the time to reflect on what just happened, where I just was, what I saw, said, or did. I would like to be able to look at the ripples of my life. It might just give me a sense of what my life means.
Blah, blah, blah, this is not where I wanted to go with this post. I sound like a whining complaining mid life crisis middle age women.
But, isn't that what I am right now? Is this reflection on myself not what comes next for me? I expect the next few years may be a little tough on me, but that can only make me stronger. And what's wrong with a little, or even a lot, of reflection on yourself every now and then. A season of winter and then spring in your life.
I think I will spend some time this weekend reading the new Lois Hole spring gardening magazine I just purchased.
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